When you say this your dad lights up. I know that you have no idea what you are saying, but it makes us feel good to think you are calling his name. Today is the day your da da should be leaving for Iraq. Boy God has been great to us...your dad is still here. Your dad and I have been together since we were in high school. We are the best of friends. We always have been and we always will be. When we decided to have a baby we decided together, and when we decided to adopt...well... that was kind of a different story. It took some convincing on my part to get your dad on board, and to convince him, I would tell him that "it would take us awhile"... little did we know that when we started the process after January 1, 2009 our daughter would be born 4 months later. How did that happen? You were meant to be ours. We have said that since day one, and we will say that forever. There is no doubt in our minds and our hearts that you weren't made for us, you were! You even look like us. (people tell us that all the time!)
Last week your dad said something to me that words can't describe. We were talking about a guy that works with him that was talking about adopting and asking your dad stuff about it. He asked "was it worth it?". When I heard that I thought that it was the dumbest thing I've ever heard.... was it worth it. It was worth every minute of it. Every tear. Every pain. Every worry. Every excitement. Every single bit of it. Then he asked your dad how much it cost. Your dad told him that days before we heard about you, we were going to send 12,500.00 in to an agency that had a total price for adoption of 25,000.00. At the time we were about to do this, the thought of paying that much money made your dad a little nauseous. But when he told me about the conversation with the guy at work and that he told him, "at first I was shocked that it cost so much to adopt a baby, but after we got Charly, there is no amount of money I wouldn't pay for her." This statement just made me smile. Your dad said, "I would pay double or triple what we paid to get our Charly." Your dad loves you. He beams when he sees you. He melts when you laugh, and his eyes light up when you smile. When you are sick he hurts for you. Your dad is the best.
He is still here and we don't know for how long, but for now we will soak up our time with da da. You will call his name in the morning, call his name throughout the day, and call his name when you are up in the middle of the night. There isn't a second in the day that your dad doesn't want to hear it, and when he leaves he'll long for the first second he can hear it again. Your dad loves you so much and you will always know this.
Last week your dad said something to me that words can't describe. We were talking about a guy that works with him that was talking about adopting and asking your dad stuff about it. He asked "was it worth it?". When I heard that I thought that it was the dumbest thing I've ever heard.... was it worth it. It was worth every minute of it. Every tear. Every pain. Every worry. Every excitement. Every single bit of it. Then he asked your dad how much it cost. Your dad told him that days before we heard about you, we were going to send 12,500.00 in to an agency that had a total price for adoption of 25,000.00. At the time we were about to do this, the thought of paying that much money made your dad a little nauseous. But when he told me about the conversation with the guy at work and that he told him, "at first I was shocked that it cost so much to adopt a baby, but after we got Charly, there is no amount of money I wouldn't pay for her." This statement just made me smile. Your dad said, "I would pay double or triple what we paid to get our Charly." Your dad loves you. He beams when he sees you. He melts when you laugh, and his eyes light up when you smile. When you are sick he hurts for you. Your dad is the best.
He is still here and we don't know for how long, but for now we will soak up our time with da da. You will call his name in the morning, call his name throughout the day, and call his name when you are up in the middle of the night. There isn't a second in the day that your dad doesn't want to hear it, and when he leaves he'll long for the first second he can hear it again. Your dad loves you so much and you will always know this.
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